Anticipation

Tomorrow is my first consultation with the Invitro specialist. I’m so nervous, I’m sick to my stomach. Everyone is telling me that it’s going to be ok and that I’ll soon be pregnant and fine. Well I feel the opposite. I’ve had 6 miscarriages in the last 3 years so I’m very scared. Obviously I have no problem getting pregnant. I just can’t carry for some reason. I’ve gone to a fertility specialist in the past and all my results were fine. Hopefully tomorrow will be the beginning of getting to the bottom of my miscarriages. I’m also having anxiety about the thought of quitting smoking but I have to do it if I want to have a successful and healthy baby… I need to go to my psychiatrist and talk about my options of medication! I spoke briefly once about what if I get pregnant and need to get off my meds, he prefers I take nothing. I’m very scared to get off my meds they really help me a lot. It took so long to get the right script. My sister thinks I’ll be fine because I’ll be so excited about the pregnancy. I wish that would be the outcome. I’m also stressed because even though my husband says he understands me, the mood swings and my episodes. He really doesn’t. So it makes me feel nervous that he won’t be supportive. It sucks to be bipolar